This was a year that started with profound struggles. Mentally and emotionally, I was destroyed; my dream job had slipped between my fingers like icy water running swiftly down it’s stream. Leaving my heart and mind unmistakably abolished, I was left to pick up the pieces slowly on my own, with the help of a few good friends. There’s a lot that my mind still wishes and dreams, but I fall back on the belief of everything happening for a reason. As a wise friend put it, I may have become so obsessed with being a Patroller, that I wouldn’t have accomplished much else that I desired- like creating more art, becoming a yoga teacher, or becoming close with the people that did support and surround me during that painful time. Although I can’t say I don’t feel sorrow about what happened, over this year I’ve learned that I still needed to grow; as well as to let go of the negative emotions within myself that left me thinking I were unworthy and incompetent. With each attempt of diving deeper inward to brutally acknowledged the “heart break”.. I flourished. Diving to that same spot of “failure” that was blackened in my heart, muddling out the concrete pain until it softens, has given me a new set of eyes to glimpse through. As a result of diving into the kinks, I became a better human, adventuring towards California, and learning to detach myself from irrelevant issues along the way. I opened up my heart wider than ever before, and learned what it’s like to fully commit to living in the now. Not taking the day for granted, but realizing what I need to do in my day to stay in alignment with my purpose. One day, I still want to grow up and be a Ski Patroller. For now? I’m happily building my confidence in not only myself, but my yoga practice, and personal skiing ability. In spreading endless positivity, yet not taking the shit that I thought I should “just deal with” and “not make a fuss about”. I’ve learned to be blunt about my intentions, and to let others understand that if they don’t uplift my spirits, they’re unwelcome in my journey of bettering myself. This next year will bring more traveling, deepening my practice(s), and overall living and loving the best damn life I could possibly live. So hey, if you wanna link up and not be judgmental, cliquey, or resistant to growth- join me as I keep growing and learning, too✨ —
Here’s to the new year,
Love always
Belle